Groundhogs

So, as a teacher with lots of P.Phil stories today, I've been thinking of the famous critter's lifestyle. I'm thinking I could easily be a groundhog...you eat non-stop for the entire time you're awake, you go to bed when the sun goes down, you have an escape route built into your life for quick get aways when things become overwhelming, and then you sleep all winter long...I mean you really sleep. Like no waking up to pee, no taking care of responsibilities, nothing for the entire winter. Now, having lived in upstate NY for a while, I know the winters are looong. Oh how I long to be a g.hog in NY! Who am I kidding? I long for a long thought-free, interruption free sleep!
Which I suppose leads me to my latest guilty mom thought. T (my son) has been sleeping in my bed for the last five nights. Now I know this isn't the worst thing I could do, but we have been using a Friday night sleep in Mom's bed as a treat and now it's turned into every night again. See, he's just turned five and we're still dealing with the occasional bed wetting incidents. So I guess last Wednesday he must have had an accident and the sheets were washed on Thursday. Either I was too tired, stressed or maybe just lazy, but I didn't put the sheets back on his bed...it was just easier to let him climb in bed with me (yes, I do have a waterproof cover under the sheets on "his" side of the bed). And now it's Tuesday and he'll still be sleeping in my bed. There is some comfort waking up to hear his breathing, to see his little body curled up under his blankie. Maybe I should let the guilt go and accept the grace of having a healthy child snoring next to my pillow.

My First Post

I've been thinking of writing my amazing adventures for over a year now...more and more since I decided to leave my husband in October of 2008. It seems so long ago now and so much has changed in my life. The least of which was a move from Washington to Arizona...back to my hometown, a little place tucked away in the high desert. My son and I drove with our cat Fluffy last July to begin a new life here. I'm figuring out how to juggle being a full time parent and teaching a full day kindergarten class. It's definitely challenging and I'm still trying to get it right, but I know that even when things get tough and I wonder if I can really do it, I wouldn't change a thing. I wouldn't go back to my son's father, I wouldn't change the second chance I gave him and I wouldn't change giving my son a chance to grow up in a home built on honesty. Ok, so I have to get to sleep and none of this has any connection, but I plan to pull it all together. I'm hoping the simple act of writing down my daily challenges and blessings, recalling things from the past, and perhaps helping anyone else going through something similar will make sense of it for myself!